U of T Graduation day

semalam aku gi interview untuk ummatic scholarship,. aku terangkan kenapa aku kena balik Malaysia,. dan salah sorang interviewer cakap, "it's your mistake",. yeah,. my mistake, but till fu*king when should i listen to those 3 words!?

Tengok gambar Arif and batch seangkatan dengan dia gaduate membuatkan perasaan ini bercampur baur. I'm happy for them, but sad for myself. Tengok gambar dorang ngan famili masing2,. must be a realllly good feeling. next year, turn kawan2 seangkatan dengan aku gak,. and I believe, my heart will be bleeding, again.

Orang cakap benda lepas jangan dikenang. But then, how could I forget the sweetest moment in my life which at the same time the darkest., Yeah, I couldn't. Dulu, masa kat U of T setiap petang dalam perjalanan balik kelas, aku selalu cakap dalam hati; " untung gila dapat masuk U of T. Uni lawa, top, Toronto best, tapi sayang kenapa aku takleh nak perform dalam akademik"., bukan aku x pulun, tapi mungkin x berkesan. Masa 2ndyear, aku makin kamceng ngan geng Malaysian especially budak Mec; apis, rempot, busuk, luke, anap,. dari situ aku banyak perbetulkan teknik belajar aku,. keputusan meningkat, but its too late to cover my bad 1st year GPA.

My dream shattered in just 1 year, after dreaming about since my childhood.

Till now, i can feel something is missing in my life,. a broken dream,. unsettled business in Toronto,. It's like a ghost,. haunting me,. whispering to my ears,. fcking hate it