Cobaan,.

Lama tak update blog syok sendiri nih. Maklumlah, bukan ada siapa nak baca. Tapi kalau bosan-bosan ni, layan jugak tulis. Akhir tahun 2010 @ awal Muharram banyak event:

Masuk UIA

-First week memang letih tahap dewa. Nak kena register course sendiri (Kat U of T, rilek ja, sebab orang dah prepare jadual siap2). Kalau course dah penuh, melilau gak cari profosser, merayu nak masuk kelas dia. Kalau dia baik & prihatin dia kasi la. Selalunya, yang jadi masalah bila kelas tuh melibatkan penggunaan teknologi cam komputer. Sebab, kalau dah dalam bilik tu ada 40 buah komputer, so memang takda harapan nak nak add even for 1 person. In conclusion, 1st week was sooo tiring and imense frustration+ confusion. Terlintas lak dalam hati, apsal la aku datang UIA, baik aku gi UM (aku dapat offer UM gak) but thanks God, i'm able to add few more courses turning my credit hours from 12 to 15++. After this gonna ask for credit tranfer, cause there are few subject that I already took in U of T. The next big challenge is to make friends and soul mate for academic and leisure purpose lah.

p/s: bila tengok student yang bertongkat masa registration period, terasa sangat bersyukur sebab diberi kudrat nak panjat bangunan 3-4 untuk jumpa professor.,haish,. tu pun mengeluh cam hapa lagi.

A letter from creditor agency

-It was Friday morning when everybody was enjoying weekend mood, I received the SMS from Mus saying that i have outstanding phone bill. The creditor agency sent me a letter mentioning that i'm gonna have credit problem for the next 6 years if i didn't pay the bill. What da heck. Benda ni, tak sepatutnya jadi, sebab Mus dah tolong setelkan bill tertunggak aku sebelum aku kasi junior kat Toronto guna number and account aku. Kalau aku tak cari pengganti, aku dikira melanggar kontrak, dan kena bayar ganti rugi kat FIDO. So aku sendiri tak faham kenapa jadi camni, and aku harap benda ni disetel cara baik. Sori Mus, asyik nyusahkan ko. I love Toronto, and I don't want to mess up with she!

Jamming

-Dah lama tak pukul drum. Kat UIA ada team gamelan, angklong, acoustic band, dikir barat, zapin,. and I'm telling you,. the team wasss awesome!!! Bayangkan dorang main lagu waka-waka guna angklong & gamelan,. seriously sedap!

Perginya seorang fighter

-Aku terbaca tulisan arwah kat wbsite I luv Islam. Masa tuh, Arwah masih hidup. Dia nih pelajar perubatan kat UK, dan dikesan menghidap kanser masa 4th year buat medic. Sedih cerita dia. Begitulah perancangan Allah,. kadang-kadang bila aku rasa aku ni malang and cursed(sebab asyik kena masalah) aku akan ingat arwah. Ada orang diuji dengan lebih hebat. Ujian tuhan ni boleh datang anytime, jangan ingat hari ni kita boleh gelak2, esok pun gelak2, lusa gelak2, tulat gelak2,. kita takkan pernah tahu apa yang menanti kita di hadapan. Sebab tu aku pesan kat diri sendiri, kalau senang, jangan lupa mak bapak and of course brother aku, Afif Ali,. aku kalau ada masalah, dia la tempat minta nasihat dan mengadu,. brother aku la jugak tempat aku mintak otak2 JB! So, aku berdoa agar arwah yang bernama Mas Afzal Masarudin ditempatkan bersama mereka yang beriman. Sedih bila aku baca tulisan arwah nih berjudul She Who Never Dissapoints.Dia seorang kawan yang baik dan disenangi orang lain. Bagi aku, dia dah pun menunaikan tanggungjawabnya sebagai anak, sebab berjaya menjaga dan membahagiakn hati ayah dan ibunya.

Member gua!

-Aku nak mintak maaf kat Imran & Farahin sebab depa ada menegur aku kat YM, tapi aku senyap ja. Seriously guys, I need time for myself and not yet ready to reveal everything. I couldn't imagine, how u guys gonna react if I tell about my 'kepulangan ke Malaysia tercinta'. I miss my friends so much, and looking forward to meet them,..my friends are irreplaceable!

2011!

-Fuhh,. dah nak abis 2010. Cepatnya masa berlalu, rasa macam semalam ja aku amik flight ke London sebelum ke Toronto. Nice lah! Banyak betul benda jadi sepanjang tahun nih! Pahit, manis,.. Pengalaman yang paling tak disangka ialah, bila someone cakap dia sayang, cinta & macam2 lagi nice words (muntah skit) until myself thought she was serious and honest, tapi dia actually tak! yezza, nailed me! Pastu, lepas tau aku kena balik Malaysia, mula2 jarang, last2 terus tak contact! Pergh,. ni la dunia rupanya,. Takpa, belajar dari kesilapan dan pengalaman lalu, and be more matured,. tu la pesanan brother JB ak! Time will keep moving, and I have to keep moving on,. welcome 2011! Hopefully it would be promising and full with achievement year to everyone! Last but not least, memetik kata2 dari blog arwah Mas Afzal;

You'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have left.

Adios 2010,.bring it on 2011~~~

Happy Awal Muharram, and New Year 2011!!!!

Minutes with Rizal

Lagu best yang rizal penah rekemen kat aku, sebuah band dari Mississauga Canada:

Pesanan Rizal:

Rizal Shah: insya-allah

Rizal Shah: ko just manage time elok2

Rizal Shah: lepas tu banyak tanya kat prof

Rizal Shah: lepas tu kalau kena buat project dlm group

Rizal Shah: cuba cari yg rajin2

Rizal Shah: buat member gan diorang

Rizal Shah: lagipun diorang pun baru nak start first year gak kan

Rizal Shah: so semua pun baru gak

Rizal Shah: tak kenal sgt org lain

rindu dowh:

PHOENIXASM: haha,.

PHOENIXASM: hrap cmtu la

PHOENIXASM: ko kt 21 ke skang?

Rizal Shah: a'a

Rizal Shah: hafiz ada kat sini gak

Rizal Shah: tengah main fifa

PHOENIXASM: bdak 21 tgh wrpe dowh?

PHOENIXASM: jimbit apis

Rizal Shah: ok biar aku update

Rizal Shah: busuk gan dota main dota

Rizal Shah: apis main fifa

Rizal Shah: luq tlg nasihat dia skit

PHOENIXASM: cam siot luke

Rizal Shah: hahaha

PHOENIXASM: seriusly bro,. ak rndu2 moment2 klegend cmtuh

Rizal Shah: aku tau

Rizal Shah: kadang2 waktu mcm nila

Rizal Shah: kita teringat moment mcm tu

Rizal Shah: relaks

Rizal Shah: nanti bila kitorang balik malaysia

Rizal Shah: nanti kitorang lawat ko

Rizal Shah: kita keluar tengok wayang ke

Rizal Shah: makan2 ke

PHOENIXASM: ahaha,..ko pndai menayat la

PHOENIXASM: pttla la suraya suka mendampingi ko

Rizal Shah: hahaha

Rizal Shah: byk la ko

A prayer

O Allah,

make me believe in what I want to achieve,

help me achieve in what I believe.

Show me the right path.

Make me bold and strong to walk through that path.

Hidup akan jadi macam sial bila makan, tido dan bernafas tanpa matlamat! bs!

5 Billion, Seratus tingkat

Menara Warisan

Isu Menara Warisan (MW) tak habis lagi. Siap ada group bantah pembinaan menara warisan kat facebook lagi. Aku sebenarnya malas betul nak menulis nih,. bukan ada orang nak baca pun,. bengong atip! Actually aku amat bersetuju dengan pendapat somebody; bila mengkritik idea kerajaan, tak semestinya kita berada di pihak parti pembangkang. Kita sepatutnya menilai kerajaan atau pembangkang pada dasar parti dan pelaksanaanya dengan minda terbuka dan rasional. Bercakap pasal Menara Warisan ni pula, aku bukanlah individu yang layak nak memuktamadkan samada berbaloi atau tak projek nih. Tak pandai manapun, siap kena terminate lagi scholarship aku. Hampeh betul! Tapi, taklah bangang sangat nak diam sahaja. Dari bacaan aku;

1)Menara Warisan ni boleh beri 'double effect' (kesan berganda) pada ekonomi negara. Katanya, menara tu akan dijadikan tempat berniaga bumiputra & bukan bumiputra. So, terbayang dalam kepala ak, macam komtar la kot.
2)Meningkatkan nilai tanah di sekitar kawasan, seperti di Kampung Baru yang akan menguntungkan penduduk si situ yang kebanyakannya Melayu ISLAM.
3)Pengagihan kontrak pembinaan menara tuh, boleh menjadi pintu rezeki la untuk para kontraktor.

Ada yang tak setuju sebab katanya MW ni just Iconic Monument Najib. Aku pikir, bangunan lawa-lawa ni penting juga, sebab ibarat lelaki nak mengorat pompuan, kena la dressing smart2,. camtuh la jugak nak tarik investor, kena la tunjuk pencapaian yang boleh dilihat dengan mata kasar sama. Actually aku malas nak komen pasal MW nih, sebab aku x power langsung pasal economic. Aku pun bukanlah sokong 100% projek ni. Aku noob dowh bab2 nih! Aku kalau boleh nak minta PNB clear everything with fact and figures. One more thing yang aku tau pasal economy nih, bukahlah sesuatu yang binary. Hard to decide whether a specific economic decision is right or wrong. Setiap keputusan pasti ada kesan positif dan negatif. Apa yang boleh dibuat adalah, memaksimumkan kesan positif.

Tak mengapa kalau tak setuju dengan cadangan MW ni. Tapi, its a waste of time la, to bs something without trying to fix it or at least give constructive criticism. Ada yang cadang, gunakan 5 billion untuk hantar pelajar medic ke UK or what so ever. Aku tak setuju cadangan tuh, sebab tak holistik.

IDEAS

Aku ada terbaca surat khabar mengenai satu organisasi yang dikenali sebagai IDEAS. Apa itu IDEAS?

The idea to establish an institute to promote libertarian ideals was first mooted by 3 friends – Wan Saiful Wan Jan, Tunku ‘Abidin Muhriz, and Wan Mohd Firdaus Wan Mohd Fuaad – in early 2006, having realised that there is a need to promote libertarian (classical liberal) ideas to Malaysians in a more strategic and organised fashion.

Click sini untuk ke website IDEAS atau click sini ke laman Facebook depa dan di sini untuk membaca komen Ku Li tentang IDEAS. Aku memang respek dengan founders IDEAS ni. Dorang grad from UK and penglibatan dorang di peringkat antarabangsa sangat mengagumkan. Boleh check profil depa. Salute depa!

Dari apa yang aku baca di newspaper, IDEAS nih, adalah think tank dalam bidang economy. Antaranya, depa buat kajian untuk cuba melaksanakan sesetengah sistem ekonomi yang diguna pakai di UK untuk diamalkan di Malaysia demi memajukan lagi ekonomi di Malaysia sebab sistem pemerintahan di Malaysia dan UK almost da same (monarchy, parliament). Boleh lawat atau join depa untuk dapat maklumat lebih lanjut.

Cromwell

It was Sunday evening when I watched 7o's film entitled Cromwell on channel TV2 while having Milo and 'Roti Kering'. The film was already halfway, but still I could understand the main conflict and theme. Disgusted with the policies of King Charles I, Oliver Cromwell plans to take his family to the New World. But on the eve of their departure, Cromwell is drawn into the tangled web of religion and politics that will result in the English Civil War. So, basically its Cromwell VS King Charles I. For more details click here . You can also watch the movie in YouTube. There is one scene that caught my attention. It was very inspiring.

Developed Nation, 2020

When the prime minister ambitiously waging the Wawasan 2020, I can't stop myself from being pessimist. I'm in between, being optimistic or realistic. I would love to see Malaysia as a developed country before 2020. The wages would increase, low unemployment rate and many more benefits. But it seems hard to achieve W2020 as it is just ten years from now, and there are a lot of transformation need to be done and the hardest thing is to build a nation with a first class mentality which Tun have been working on for almost 20 years but still he did not succeed. I don't think the government should rush for 2020. Take time, and always do check and error when implementing strategies toward W2020. Hopefully there wont be irreversible, untraceable mistake that could lead to socio-economic imbalance such as increasing gap between low and high class group hence narrowing the middle class group(capitalist effect). You can read these reports by Proud 2Be Malaysian blog, Forbes , Tony Pua and of course Najib 1 Malaysia to make evaluation. Those who used to live in developed country in North America, Western Europe or Japan have better idea on how a developed country looks like. How the people think and their lifestyle.

Toronto

I miss Toronto,.

Miss my friends & the lecture room,

I miss it sooo damn much,.

I dream about it,.

Its already October,. can wait for April,.

I promise I'll be there again,.Gonna spend my October and April there,.

but everything wont be da same,. never da same,..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqkrwvSvXMg&feature=related

Should or Shouldn't

I applied to do internship in ACM about few weeks ago, and my application have been accepted. At the first glance, ACM is quite a big company with below manufacturing capabilities.

• Receiving Inspection (Test Lab)
• CATIA V5 Suite Of Tools
• Walk-in Freezer
• Chemical Storage
• Core Storage
• Core Block Saw
• Core Chamfer Saw
• Ovens
• Prepreg Automatic Cutting Machine
• Contamination Control Area
• Optical Laser Template (OLT)
• Autoclaves
• 2½-axis CNC Water Jet Trim
• 5-axis CNC Router
• Portable Coordinate Measurement Equipment
• Ultrasonic Nondestructive Testing Capability
• Distribution Warehouse

I'm suppose to start my practical this Tuesday, 12 Oct 2010 but I asked for a delay and planned to start on 19 Oct 2010. Erm,. I am in dilemma. It takes around 40 minutes to go to that company by motorcycle. I don't know whether I could stand, waking up at 6++ and start my motorcycle at 7.00 a.m and risk my life to get there.

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The route from the place where I'm temporarily staying to ACM, very close to Thai-Msian border.

ps: Kena test pegi tempat tu this week. Do some calculation on fuel cost, then decide! Tanpa keberanian mimpi takkan bermakna,. peace, and gudnite...

Like Rooni Harun,.

Bukan gambo sebonar.

Its a weird feeling. It feels like Rooni Harun who broken heartedly siting on the supporters bench, watching his comrade playing in the 1st England world Cup final after 100 years waiting, due to a month suspension for unintentionally kicking some bloody Scottish ass. The heart is bleeding and crying to be a part of the game. The faith is soo strong that he will change the game, but the old school FIFA stick with their decision on the banned after 3 times appeal by Rooni. Bullshit this feeling. To make it worst, Rooni already 34 years old. He wont be able to play for the next world cup anymore. He has been working so hard and patiently to be at this final, but not as f**kng supporter. He feels so lonely even thought he is surrounded by the loud hooligan supporters. why?Its simply because he 's a player, not a supporter! Rooni's dream since childhood was shattered. He feels so lonely. Rooni don't really know how could he heal the pain, but he know he must keep moving and achieving. Pity Rooni Harun.

Lepaking

Went out at 7, and came back at 1a.m. Hangout at mamak and bowling at Taman Jati. Bila jumpa dengan fiq, xkan lekang isu politik lah. Jumpa faridzal, of course military. Mad lak, tak banyak cakap, tapi senyum dia penuh makna dan sinis.Aku? Layan semua, xda hal punya. Aku prefer topik bola, tapi masalahnya aku sorang ja minat bola2 nih.

Brilliant Faridzal gave an idea; apa kata kalau setiap student oversea yang disponsor government, mesti sponsor at least one person under him/her. Macam teori MLM gitu., and it made me think for a while. Nak sponsor seorang student bukan murah. Paling koman RM 500,000. Tu paling2 koman untuk universiti paling cikai kat ovc. Ak sendiri pun fikir 2-3 kali nak setuju cadangan tuh. Ya la, most orang kalau boleh nak ngelak bayar balik. Ermm,. ah,.err,. sapa berani sahut cabaran faridzal angkat tangan! salut,.

p/s: biar gua setel satu2 dulu masalah gua.

Ramadhan

Salam,

In few hours, Ramadhan will leave us,. leave me with memories to be remembered.

Ramadhan

Petronas Fertilizer Kedah (PFK).

I spend most of my daytime in PFK, for industrial training. So much to say about it, in term of technical and non technical side. Overall, I started to understand the roles of mechanical engineer better. Climbing the pretty high granulation unit, made my blood in the vein flowed faster. Standing a few inch from 500 Degree celcius boiling unit reminded me to the hellfire. It was unease feeling but i'm freaking love it! A meeting with some Japanese engineers, make me realized, engineer is not just somebody with a calculator in his hand. Its more that that. Root Cause Analysis( RCA) is crucial, Rotating and Static,..

I'm planning to apply for another internship in ACMSB or Modenas. Damn,. f*****ing funnnnnnn!!! Tenks to En Mohd Hanif B. Che Omar. CGPA might get you a good job. Passion will bring you beyond that.

Syawal

Selamat hari raya to everyone. Especially to those who unintentionally visited this site. *laugh*. Maaf, salah silap..

Ghana

A huge condelence to Ghana, was the only representative from african continent in the last 16, battling to raise the african football image on the african soil,.

The way they lose is horrible,. a shattered dream,.a painful emotion,.

Although it has abundant natural resources, Africa remains the world's poorest and most underdeveloped continent, due to a variety of causes. They (Ghanian or African in general) don't have skycraper to be proud with, the economic and corruption level are among the worst, the diseases and viruses make things even worst. 

There is a game that can cheer them up,. make them proud to be african,. a game that unite the continent,.heal the pain for a while,.its football.

Asamoah could be a hero today,.but it didt happen,.

Suarez is the savior,.

c'est la vie,.

life could be very cruel sometimes,.

if there's tomorrow,. there's a hope,.

p/s:hope to see more african, playing in the top leagues around the world after this.

4

Dude,.

It's soo close,.

4 days to go,.

will it be forever?,.

or just for a while,.

dude,.

feeling soo sad,.

its getting near,

time keep moving,..

damn,. this feeling is so not good,..

its hard to believe this will happen,.

dude,.

how do i face tomorrow?

will it be better?

or tougher?

no idea,.

Toronto,. i promise u, ill be back,. maybe no longer as student,. but ill be back,.

reminiscing the pain and the gain,..

1001 lessons,.

from St. George to Harbour Front, from summer to winter,.rain to snow,.

from Toronto to Vancouver,.

from SF to Bahen,.

from Wallberg to Convo Hall,.

from APS112 to MIE237,.

Its just one epsiode,. one episode,.

tomorrow will come,.

chances is always there,.

life is unpredictable,. full with distortion,.

but the aim remains same,.

emotion is not the solution,.

pray is the solution,.

coz praying is hoping,.

dude,.

today will leave us,.

tomorrow iA will come,.

i will still be here tomorrow,. but my dreams may not,.

41°01′N 28°58′E (Planning)

Alhamdulillah,.

Baru setel 60% plan untuk ke Istanbul dan semuanya agak positif. Generally camnih la plan ak:

Istanbul Ataturk Airport-->Hotel Birbey--> Tempat-tempat sekitarnya

Kemudahan pengangkutan pula selalunya trem dan Metro Train. Dari airport ke Hotel, amik metro( HAVALIMANI--->AKSARAY METRO STATION). Kalau nak bersiar-siar kawasan sekitar(yang dekat2), most probably guna trem la. Tapi kalau dilihat pada google map, tempat2 menarik kat istanbul ni agak dekat2. So, aku prefer jalan kaki, baru feel.

 Anyway semua plan nih bergantung gak samada ak boleh dapat visa turkey atau tak. Menurut daripada apa yang ak baca kat forum2  danTurkey punya Ministry of Foreign Affairs Website, 'sticker visa' boleh dibeli dan dikeluarkan on the spot kat airport. Dalam 10 minit boleh dapat. Kena bayaran atau x aku x pasti, sebab ada source kata kena, ada kata x. So, tunggu sana ja. X silap dalam 20 CAD ja cost visa tuh.

Map bawah ni la tempat aku plan nak pegi buat masa nih:

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So, lepas ni aku akan research sikit tempat2 makan yang murah dan best. Primary source aku, mestilah pak cik Anthony Bourdain. Plus, kena gak ushar2 tiket untuk masuk muzium, e.t.c. Then, kena baca sikit pasal sejarah Istanbul. Aku pegi sehari ja, so kalau nak maximize betul2 vacation, kena la study skit background tempat nih. 

Anyway, this time, kind of sedih la. Travel sorang2. Pastu tiket plak one way. Harap, dapat la tenangkan sikit hati ni, selepas ribut sana-sini. Mesti sunyi dowh travel sorang2,. xleh nak gelak2, nak kutuk2 and kacau2 member. Dang,..

Reminiscing SBP, 6:151

Salam to all,

Dalam dok jengok facebook, tetiba terserempak dengan satu artikel blog mengenai kematian pelajar RMC: http://nazrinafifinasruddin.blogspot.com/2010/06/rmc-boy-dies.html

Dan bila terbaca artikel nih, memang aku teringat zaman sekolah menengah aku dulu. Memang ada ragging, kes2 terpencil pelajar gaduh, form 4 nak ganyang for 5, seniority, etc.,. benda normal la, ni la politik budak hostel. Ada jugak politik dan tradisi yang baik.  Bagi yang tak pernah study kat SBP, mungkin akan rasa janggal dan ridiculous dengan prkara2 sampah macam nih. Its ok, tak salah pun nak rasa macam tuh. Tapi, tak semua sekolah SBP camtuh. Setiap sekolah ada la politik masing2. MCKK, RMC, STAR, SDAR adalah sekolah semua pelajar lelaki, punyai tradisi tersendiri, politik tersendiri. SMAP LABU, SMAP KAJANG, KISAS dengan politiknya. SAINA, SEJIWA, SAINS KUCING ada politiknya juga. Sekolah harian pun ada politiknya, cuma kurang la sikit kot, sebab life pelajar sek harian generally tamat lepas sesi pembelajaran dalam kelas. Dunia mereka lebih terbuka. Politik mereka lebih terdedah. Ada banyak pilihan untuk mengelak politik yang tak diingini. Komuniti mereka luas, interaksi dengan masyarakat tidak terbatas. Got the idea? Bila aku sebut perkataan tradisi, please open ur mind. I'm not talking about tradition=ragging. Please, blow ur head if that is wat u think. I'm talking about something beyond that la.,

Aku pernah la juga kena sepak penerajang, side kick, flying kick, double punch, lebam-lebam badan. Tapi tu masa aku masuk sparring tournament la. Kalau dah pakai body pad pun senak kena penerajang, boleh imagine la kalau tak pakai apa2. Itupun kena penerajang dengan budak sama berat dengan aku. Masa aku form four kot, kalau nak sound or ragging budak, kena play safe. No body contact. Jentik pun jangan. Sebab time tuh, gempar satu Malaysia, sebab ada kes buli dan pelajar nak belasah cikgu kat sekolah 'elite' SBP. KPM tegas dengan kes macam ni, dan xnak berulang. Sayang seribu kali sayang, hari ini, ia masih berlaku. 

Secara peribadi ni recommendation ak:

1)Kalau nak hantar anak masuk boarding school(SBP,MRSM,Pivate) better after dorang 15. Lepas PMR. Kasi matang dan ada jati diri. Usah biarkan politik hampeh hostel bunuh creativity dan potensi anak anda.

2)Kalau nak hantar masa UPSR gak, kena sensitif dengan si anak tuh. Lawat dia kerap, tanya masalah dia, call cikgu kelas dia, identify any freaking changes in him/her. Jangan sesekali lepas tangan. 

3) Kalau nampak perubahan lain macam kat anak tuh, angkut ja keluar dari abroad school. Kasi treatment apa yang patut.

Di penghujung penulisan nih, aku embrace dengan philosophy sesetengah sekolah yang nak lahirkan pelajar kental, keras, tough, versatile dan jantan habis. Tapi, jangan lupa untuk lahirkan pelajar yang ada sifat penyayang, belas kasihan, rational dan berhati perut jantung. Bak kata pujangga: "muka nampak ganaz, tapi dalam hati ada taman". Jadi, aku mengutuk sekeras-kerasnya kes pembunuhan adik Naim dan politik mudharat nih. Hapuskan segera budaya ni. Bukan hanya pelajar bersalah perlu di hukum, pentadbiran juga perlu disiasat atas kecuaian dan sifat lepas tangan mereka serta dihukum jika didapati bersalah. 

Akhir kata, takziah aku ucapkan kepada keluarga Mohammad Naim Mustaqim Mohamad Sobri. Semoga roh adik Naim tenang di sana. Semoga keluarganya tabah. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. Hidup mesti terus. Semoga si pembunuh tu bertaubat dan buat sesuatu untuk meringankan beban keluarga si mati. 

Rest in peace bro,.may Allah forgive u,. 

 Al-An’am ayat 151:

“Dan jangan kamu membunuh jiwa yang diharamkan oleh Allah (untuk membunuhnya) kecuali apabila berhak (membunuhnya)..”

p/s: 'politik' dalam post nih, bukan hanya dibentuk oleh interaksi pelajar. Unsur2 lain dari 'school administrative' dalam bentuk undang-undang juga adalah faktor yang membentuk dunia dan politik ini.

3|7

-Gua baru beli tiket balik Malaysia. This time, one way. From Toronto-->Istabul-->K.L. Ada sedikit masa nak lepak kat Istanbul. 

-Due tu money constraint, i wont't travel far for that city. My first target is the Blue Mosque. According to some reliable sources, its gonna take around 48 minutes to get there from the airport.

-Jalan2 near the seashore and the town, would be a bonus. I wish i have a friend in turkey, coz things would be easier with a tourist guide. I really hope people in Istanbul can speak English.  

-Actually, I need to do more research on the available transport. I prefer bus or train. Gonna do it after exam. Gonna write more after the exam on 21st June. Its prog. , the paper that i failed almost a year ago.

Adios amigos.

2:216

-I just received an e-mail from Mara, mentioning that, they stick to their previous decision to terminate my scholarship after the second appeal made by me.

-It's not the shittiest day of my life coz i'm kinda getting used to this feeling since few months ago.

-This year, should be the best year for me to celebrate Hari Raya. I've made some improvement in my second year, in term of academic, and I've got the offer to do internship at Petronas Fertilizer, Gurun. But, the sponsorship termination really bring me down(literally), together with the achievement i've made.

-I don't really understsand why it's so easy for them to make such decision. I really mean it. I've been sponsored by them for almost 4 years since in KMB. I've shown them my capability to recover from 1st year agony, on paper. I do understand, CGPA is very important. But I don't think it's everything. 

-Mara have done their best to help me. Giving me opportunities to study in oversea(even for a while). To see and touch the world.  I really appreciate their kindness. I deserve this punishment for my past ignorant and stupidity. 

-The most important thing is for me to learn the past and keep moving on. But like a fresh deep wound, its really hurt. It need some stitches to speed up the recovery process. When recovered, there would be a scar. Ahh,.. i need time,. gimme time friends.

Adios amigos. Grasias.

Reminder to me,..

Sahih International

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.[2:216]

Tafsir al-Jalalayn

Prescribed for you, obligatory [for you], is fighting, disbelievers, though it be hateful to you, by nature, because of the hardship involved. Yet it may happen that you hate a thing which is good for you; and it may happen that you love a thing which is bad for you: because the soul inclines towards those desires which result in its destruction and its rejection of the religious obligations that would bring about its happiness. Perhaps, then, even if you are averse to it, you will find much good in fighting, as a result of victory, booty, martyrdom or reward; while, if you were to reject fighting, even if you would like to do so, you will find much evil, because then you may be subjugated, impoverished and denied the reward; God knows, what is good for you, and you know, this, not, so strive in what He commands you.

Down

Sometimes, u simply need an ego, to beat the sorrow,.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtV9ggWmf-I&feature=related

L4T LEADERSHIP LECTURES WITH TUN DAIM

The second entry for this month, is not about me. Its about Tun Daim. Very interesting topic,. "jaguh kampung". A lot to  learn from a Malaysian hero. He simply deserve all the

 respect. Enjoy the article: click here

You can also listen to the lectures below:

Muslim version facebook?

Yup, the interface look similar to facebook. have a look here.

Below is the description about the social web:

Millatfacebook is Ummah’s very own, first social networking site. The objective is to provide a platform for all Muslims and nice, decent and sophisticated people of all religions and faiths, to come together and make a network. They should interact in a way that is socially responsible by providing them all the freedom of expression, however respecting each others’ sentiments, sensitivities and beliefs. 

Wanna read more? Click here

From wiki, click here

This application was launched on May, 2010. Still new. Surely, there are few complaints about the registration process. Give em time.  Hopefully this application would be an alternative for a wiser nation. Lets stop the facebook monopoly. Show em, what does it mean by freedom of speech.

I haven't register yet and i dont think i'm gonna do it in at this moment. No longer interested in social network application. Enjoy the new social network application!!!

Hang out

-Just came back from Missisauga.

-Reciting Suratul Yassin and Doa' for uncle Musa. Their(his family if i'm not forgotten) Visa, issued in Singapore have been rejected due to somekind ridiculous bereaucratic problems. Quite huge amount of money have been spent on lawyer. Let's pray, that everything will be ok.

-Thanks to uncle Musa's family and his friends for such a lovely Saturday evening and the food. Bihun and Briani always be my favourite.

-Hanging out with people older than u is something that u shouldn't miss during ur youth. Learn from thier experience. Coz life is more than the text books.

-Thanks Che Din for bringing us there.

Privatization..Affirmative!

Gooood morning Malaysia, Good evening Canada,.

Gonna have mid term tomorrow, but dont feel like studying, coz im thinking about who  i am right now,.i am a private student, officially 2 months ago.  cash flow is always moving out, no cash income. in business, this happen for 2 biggest reasons: either u just started ur business, or u are moving towards bankruptcy. i'm  living with the saving ive made.  

Pessimist about the possibility of me staying here in canada for another month, its hard to live with this state of mind,. again this started few months ago. I've made through this difficult semester with a complicated mind state,. made little improvement doesnt make me feel at ease,. 

they want more,. asked for more.

This is a bridge, its called  Bridge of No Return

(돌아올 수 없는 다리).

Erm,. this is a bridge that make u thinks for thousand times before crossing it, and u will only start thinking about it when someone chase u with Sub-machinegun or may be ur lovers is waiting for you at the another side.

Its true there is no return once u crossed this bridge. Nevermind, just walk forward. There must be another way,.

Damn! Cant find map of North Korea on google earth! wth happen? patutla no return. 

View Larger Map

dont worry there must be somekind of amateur spies.....

hell yeah,. here u go! click here

affirmative      

p/s: privatization for a betterment. life got a lot to be discovered,.. lets gooogle

Tulis surat

Baru setel tulis surat kepada MARA tadi. Pening kepala tak habis lagi, sebab tenung skrin TV lama sangat masa habiskan campaign Modern Warfare 2 tadi. 

Kena hukum sebab kesilapan lalu. Memamg padan dengan muka aku. Bak pepatah Al- Kassim Baba: "u want it,u grab it..u lost it,say gudbye to it".

Serve me right!

p/s: syial

Aunty Lydia

Tadi, berjumpa dengan aunty Lydia. Seorang Muslim, revert lebih kurang 9-10 tahun yang lepas. Seorang guru sekolah rendah yang mengajar Bahasa Perancis. Menetap di Montreal tetapi berasal dari Eropah. Slovakia kalau tak silap. Perjumpaan pertama begitu mengujakan. Mendengar seorang wanita Eropah mengkritik budaya dan pegangan masyarakatnya sendiri, membuka minda aku. Kepincangan budaya barat yang diagungkan sebahagian bangsa Asia tidak seharusnya berlaku. Aunty Lydia dibesarkan dengan ajaran Katolik. Beliau mengkaji setiap agama, sebelum bertemu Islam. Mereka yang revert, bagi aku lebih kental iman dan kepercayaanya. 

Sedih terkenang sebahagian sahabat di Malaysia yang lebih barat dari barat. Arak, Pub, Disco, seks bebas, judi. Kalaulah aunty Lydia boleh explain kepada mereka akan kepincangan ini., pasti menarik. Ingat pesan aunty Lydia, "if u are in trouble, think about it deeply. reflect urself,". Thanks aunty.

vengeance

Today, is not the saddest day in my life,

tomorrow could be the one,

another decade, why not?

Sometimes, we have to learn to let go something,

no matter how much we love it,

no matter how hard we’ve been through to have it,

we have to.

Facing sorrow tomorrow is not easy,

to bring the heyday seems not easy,

before the heyday,

enemy will laugh, true friends will pray, lovers will keep believing in one man dream.

Today, is not the saddest day in my life,

because everyday is the D-day,

but living in hopes and pray is the only way,

till the heyday come, I’m just a man full of vengeance.

Jamming bosan

thanks busuk and mus!

a lesson

When u talk about stupid stuff with stupid people, u just fool urself and ur dignity is just below ur feet. so let's fall in love with Harvard girl.

Mak

This song is for u, just for u, and i really mean it. Someday, somehow, i'll make u proud. I mean it, and i promise u.

Walking

I just uploaded few pictures, captured during my 6 days journey to NY & Boston on the facebook. It was a tiring, sleepless yet full with fun and inspiring moment. There are huge different between NY City & Boston. NY is hectic, diversified (latino, asian, black, etc.) and a city of entertainment. Even though it is a bit dirty and have high crime rate, still it is the main attraction for tourist and terrorist.

With many colleges and universities within the city and surrounding area, Boston on the other hand is a center of higher education and a center for medicine. The city's economy is also based on research, electronics, engineering, finance, and high technology. I went to Harvard and MIT (nerd pride). Both universities have a very long history and becoming a part of it, is something that you can be proud of. Frankly speaking, I always have a feeling of inferiority complex when I was walking around MIT. lol.

There are several places that I really enjoyed visiting. Among them are:

- Rockefeller Center

-Trump Tower

-Statue of Liberty

-MIT Museum

-Harvard University

-Freedom Trail, Boston

-Wall Street, NYSE

-Restaurant Penang ( Boston and NY)

This journey makes me feels so small. There are stories of great human achievement, behind the standing monuments and buildings that make me realized, there is always gonna be another mountain to climb. 

So, never stop walking.

Letih

Letih. Baru sampai ke apartment. Thanks everyone for such amazing journey.

It's not just about Tornto-New York-Boston, it's more than that.

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